The General...In General

I think a lot of the time my thoughts don't come out in a coherent manner. It's as if I am dyslexic. it makes sense to me, but no one else could make anything of it. I used to put it to paper and some how it seemed to make some sort of shape; Something recognizable. I should probably start doing that again. I haven't written in a long time. Well, I tried to about a year ago and it just seemed so juvenile. it was really garbage. there are a lot of topics i don' talk about to anyone. one of which is religion. I never talk about religion to anyone. I just always feel that I can't put how I feel into words. Ithink it's really the one time that words seem so worthless. It's such an easy topic to offend or stir up argument. Both are outcomes I don't want. I just like being able to say what is on my mind without argument. I'm not saying it to get your feedback about what or how I should believe. I'm simply saying it. I have no problem with feedback about what you believe. It's a tough subject for me. i don't do politics. i don't think i am informed enough to discuss the going on's of the government. That's one of the main reasons I don't participate in voting. I don't think you should make a decision on a person to represent you if you don't know them or what they are about. Another problem there is that I don't think I could believe what they told me any way. they are just saying what they think I want to hear. There isn't enough Truth in the world. My mind is just reeling and there is no one around to talk to. The late hours when i was by myself used to be my most artistic and contemplative. now, I'm usually just trying to relax and get things tied up so I can go to sleep. I was thinking about what a friend told me today about how people often see everything as beginning and end, black and white, good or bad. I think that's my short coming. it's also where my trouble with being judgemental stems from. I can't seem to get past the good or bad issue. Really, I feel once someone does something bad that they ARE bad. I have always felt a feeling of misanthropy; people are basically bad. I think that is probably holding me back from seeing the bigger picture. I need to change that. There is no truth in it.